Be loud let your colors show
Try to keep the madness low
If they hear and it's wrong
And they come with torches on
Yeah come on

Be loud let your colors show
Try to keep the madness low
I tell them no with my hands
Make them understand the plan of it
Bright and gone

And I'm done forever
It's you and me forever
Cause I'm done forever
It's you and me forever

Be loud let the others know
First a whisper then it grows
I tell them go with my hands
Make them understand the last of it
Yeah come on, pain and all

Leave out pack your things and go
Leave the baby makers home
There's a time (now) and a place (now)
Someone built to take the race
When it calls you go head down

Head down don't you make a sound
Keep your plans all to yourself
They'll come true they follow you
They're what you're obligated to
Don't you listen to nobody else

And I'm done forever
It's you and me forever
Cause I'm done forever
See it's you and me forever

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I have always been able to articulate myself really well.  I've always been able to speak openly and coherently and in a somewhat poetic form.  My mind is so chaotic that I am unable to even start talking.  2009 was a terrible year.  It brought pain, despair, death and illness, but most importantly it caused something inside me to snap.  It lit a fire under my ass and it's the year I truly lost my mind.  I cannot say exactly why because every time my mind goes there it runs right back to the disorder.  I am fighting a battle for my life and my sanity.  I am fighting my insurance company so that I can have the opportunity to move forward with my life.  A dear friend of mine said it's like I am fighting to fight for my life.