^^^My nephew Avery

 

“When we're incomplete, we're always searching for somebody to complete us. When, after a few years or a few months of a relationship, we find that we're still unfulfilled, we blame our partners and take up with somebody more promising. This can go on and on--series polygamy--until we admit that while a partner can add sweet dimensions to our lives, we, each of us, are responsible for our own fulfillment. Nobody else can provide it for us, and to believe otherwise is to delude ourselves dangerously and to program for eventual failure every relationship we enter.”
-Tom Robbins

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Today was an okay day.  It started out rough, ED behaviors.  I played around on the intrawebz for a bit making myself late for work(or late for the bus rather).  I missed the 3:10 bus and sat out in the cold for 30 minutes for the 3:40 bus and so was about seven minutes late for work.  I wasn't able to cash my check which sucks.  There was no insider when I got there, just drivers and Brad(my manager).  No delay orders either, it's been so dead lately.  Brad spent a good portion of the time on the phone with other GMs in our district and the Raleigh district because they are doing away with the Assistant Manager position and they took away their vacation time.  I like that Brad is confident with me running the front and feels that he can do what he needs to do and not have to worry about the store.  We had entirely too many people for the amount of business and Mario kept fucking things up and trying to blame others and act as if he wasn't at fault, luckily enough Brad knows and knows that we can handle things in the store and would be fine if we just subtract Mario from the equation which he is trying to do anyways.  

Still haven't talked to my mom.  I sent her an email apologizing and trying to explain better.  I can't stop thinking about it and her.  I wish I could just for a bit.  I think she might have taken Thursday and Friday off.  It's either that or she is able to screen my calls because she hasn't answered her work phone at all.  I am beating a dead horse and I know this.  Everything must be on her terms and she won't settle for anything else.  It's just frustrating.  I actually have Mon-Thur off next week so I am planning on finishing the painting I'm working on about my mom.  I really just want to set it up outside with a warm drink, my ipod, the canvas, paint and cigs.